Once More

I tell myself they won't see what you feel
just because you treat them nice
I say don't surrender your heart 'till you know it's for real
but I never listen to my own advise

I just dive head long

once more into heartache
once more into misery
once more into thinking
this will be the end of me

I shouldn't bet all my joy on a single dream
it hurts too much to lose it all
I've been left broken with no self esteem
more times than I care to recall

but I still run

once more into sorrow
once more into anxiety
once more into concealing
there's a weaker side of me

though I feel the pain from all the times I've failed
I still try ro look like a rock
though deep down I know that my ship has sailed
I still keep standing at the dock

then I step off

once more into anguish
once more into agony
once more into wishing
all the world would leave me be